I’ve fought for so long,
fled from pain so often
that being okay is a struggle
So when I melt down its messy
I don’t meltdown smooth like ice, no…
I melt down like a fucking nuclear reactor
✨Deferential Devil✨
Author: deferentialdevil
Systemic
I think one of the most profound
and disturbing indications
of systemic racism in America,
is the notion that black people
must march en masse, in protest
during a horrific pandemic
all to make a point
to racists and blind-spotting whites.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Hostile
Hostile
A word attributed to
invaders with malicious intent…
And women who are angry.
Especially blunt women.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Stow Away
For a person who wears her heart on her sleeve, I sure can stow away feelings. I’m like that person who puts an important item in a memorable spot and promptly forgets where.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Climb
I’ve been disregarded
and stepped on
more than anyone knows
I’ve climbed my way back up
and I will rise from these ashes
It’s just that it hurts at first
and climbing takes time
✨Deferential Devil✨
Surrender
I couldn’t stop it once it started
Those feelings swept in while I slept
and in the end,
all I could do was surrender to him
or drown in the current
✨Deferential Devil✨
Never Wished For Death
I’ve never wanted to die.
But, I wanted everything
to stop
I wanted to hide from life,
and push everyone away.
But, I’ve never wished for death.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Rare Heart
Unlucky hearts grow black
as time withers their beats
Most beat a plump red,
the dull thrum of an ordinary life
But gold lines the veins of the rare
their energy an encompassing vibration
It colors their world, enticing
the rarest heart of all,
one that sees beyond a shiny finish
to love and nurture
instead of siphon and wither
✨Deferential Devil✨
Sick
I’m sick of this pain
that permeates my body
invading muscles,
and infecting my brain
✨Deferential Devil✨
Want to Run
I want to run from this hurt
but I can’t
For if I tread upon the path
so worn by these exertions
I’ll be mired, without release,
when rain floods my earth
✨Deferential Devil✨
