I Paid

I wasn’t feminine enough,
not for him, and so
he told me what to wear
Though most thought me too small,
and though I worked out and he didn’t,
he said I’d get fat the way I ate
I paid for everything for him
but he scolded for the way
I spent my own money

✨Deferential Devil✨


Shame from others
can stay with a person
make them feel stupid,
for simple things which are
as natural as breathing

But now… breathing isn’t natural,
it’s labored, and painful,
and makes a person
feel ashamed
for no reason except
another’s own insecurity which
became someone else’s pain to bear

✨Deferential Devil✨