Systemic

I think one of the most profound
and disturbing indications
of systemic racism in America,
is the notion that black people
must march en masse, in protest
during a horrific pandemic
all to make a point
to racists and blind-spotting whites.

✨Deferential Devil✨

Descent

I feel that descent into madness
just before it comes on
And I can’t break from it
or bury it or run away
It finds me no matter
where I go, or who I become
The strong fighter
the sad lover,
the lone wolf
This madness envelops me
with cold, unyielding arms
ties me down without mercy
until I find a point
to crawl back into the light

✨Deferential Devil✨

Bitter Thread

A bitter thread winded
amongst dreams of better things
settling deep, like the roots
of a noxious weed
Through chambered rooms
it snaked and slithered
choking a soul-weary heart

It was the biting taste
of iron in the blood
a terrible, loathsome reeking
of copper and rotten things
set aside and long forgotten

While lies filtered through veins
up to my brain to swear their hatred
Spoken as soft as a whisper
from a stage miles away
it declared that I was alone
in a world full of people

✨Deferential Devil✨

I Paid

I wasn’t feminine enough,
not for him, and so
he told me what to wear
Though most thought me too small,
and though I worked out and he didn’t,
he said I’d get fat the way I ate
I paid for everything for him
but he scolded for the way
I spent my own money

✨Deferential Devil✨