He called me kind but inside
I wanted to tear him to bits
For making me feel less than
when I am so much more than
For holding me to higher standards
to which he didn’t deign to lift himself
✨Deferential Devil✨
Self-love
Days
On my best days I’m a storm
blowing through the world,
knocking down anything
which blocks my path
or raining down my love
On my worst days
I am a disaster
A mess of a human
all emotion, tragedy, and darkness
A tsunami swallowing cities whole
But everyday, I’m still me
whether the world sees it
I won’t break to make others ok
All that does is kill my storm
but doesn’t calm my seas
✨Deferential Devil✨
Truth
Truth isn’t always meant to be good news
Sometimes it hurts, rips you open
But there’s a certain beauty to it
because someone felt comfortable,
and open, to telling you their truth
And that is a rare gift of freedom
which you gave to them
✨Deferential Devil✨
Proud
I’m proud of how you decided
to change what didn’t serve
the kind of life you want
Your courage is immense
and your heart is bigger
than you’d care to admit
But I see it, acknowledge it,
and celebrate the kindness
you’d hide from others
✨Deferential Devil✨
To Save
What might save most
wont save them all
What kills some
could save many
What makes you,
might break others
Learning others is key
trying despite it all
is imperative
✨Deferential Devil✨
Soaring
Sometimes a biting bitterness
twines to hold me captive
But it’s not too long
before bitter is crushed
under the weight of a life lesson
found amongst the debris
and an ever-hopeful heart
that refuses to drown
in anything but a soaring sweetness
✨Deferential Devil✨
Strength
Life doesn’t give us
what we can handle
to make us strong.
Nah, life gives us
whatever it wants
because we already have
the strength required to survive.
It’s just some days that strength
gets lost in the mire
and we forget it’s there
until we’re reminded.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Ocean
I wore the ocean
to feel more like me.
It’s in my dance, my eyes,
my dreams, and the stars
Tired muscles lap at the salt
to replenish their needs
while I swim the depth
and tangle in the weeds
✨Deferential Devil✨
Tell Me
How does one settle
after a life of flight or fight
To finally learn self-worth,
with boundaries so strict
an army couldn’t penetrate
How does one live
without fear of destructive ‘love,’
fear of painful and swift reprisal,
crippling self-doubt, and self-hate
How to sleep after it all…
Tell me there is a balance
between the former darkness
and the newest light
so the pendulum swing isn’t so extreme
✨Deferential Devil✨
Can’t Give Up
I don’t know how to give up.
I’ve tried, but my spirit won’t give in.
✨Deferential Devil✨
Deferential Devil Poetry 