Tell Me

How does one settle
after a life of flight or fight
To finally learn self-worth,
with boundaries so strict
an army couldn’t penetrate

How does one live
without fear of destructive ‘love,’
fear of painful and swift reprisal,
crippling self-doubt, and self-hate

How to sleep after it all…
Tell me there is a balance
between the former darkness
and the newest light
so the pendulum swing isn’t so extreme

✨Deferential Devil✨

Rare Heart

Unlucky hearts grow black
as time withers their beats
Most beat a plump red,
the dull thrum of an ordinary life
But gold lines the veins of the rare
their energy an encompassing vibration
It colors their world, enticing
the rarest heart of all,
one that sees beyond a shiny finish
to love and nurture
instead of siphon and wither

✨Deferential Devil✨


I feel that descent into madness
just before it comes on
And I can’t break from it
or bury it or run away
It finds me no matter
where I go, or who I become
The strong fighter
the sad lover,
the lone wolf
This madness envelops me
with cold, unyielding arms
ties me down without mercy
until I find a point
to crawl back into the light

✨Deferential Devil✨

Bitter Thread

A bitter thread winded
amongst dreams of better things
settling deep, like the roots
of a noxious weed
Through chambered rooms
it snaked and slithered
choking a soul-weary heart

It was the biting taste
of iron in the blood
a terrible, loathsome reeking
of copper and rotten things
set aside and long forgotten

While lies filtered through veins
up to my brain to swear their hatred
Spoken as soft as a whisper
from a stage miles away
it declared that I was alone
in a world full of people

✨Deferential Devil✨